Sunday, December 13, 2009

Mas Kahwin

There was a recent announcement on mas kahwin has been increased from RM 80 to RM 100 and now to RM 300 in Selangor.

Apa komen orang?


Semakin banyak la anak dara yang tak berkawin.



Yang herannya… yang banyak bagi komen-komen bodoh seperti ini adalah perempuan.
Apa yang beban, saya tak paham.

Yang beban sebenarnya, bila kita nak pelamin Pak Abu, bila kita nak baju pengantin Razuan Raziwil, bila kita nak hantaran handbag LV, kasut CD, jam tangan Phillipe Patek, wang hantaran RM 30,000.

Itu yang beban. Tapi itu yang orang nampak. So itu kene lah mahal.

Orang tak tanya mas kawin tu berapa. So kalau RM 80 pun takper. The highlight is… berapa hantaran? Itu lah status.

Mas kawin adalah sesuatu yang wajib. It belongs to the bride and tak ada sesiapa yang boleh ambil duit itu other than the bride herself. Bukan kah itu indah?

Kalau mas kawin setakat RM 80, sekali makan kat Tony Roma’s dah habis.

Hey ladies! Jangan la jadi bodoh. Kalau dah bodoh, jangan la bagi komen bodoh dalam TV. Memalukan and you sound so stupid. Orang buat something untuk menaikkan martabat perempuan. Awak pulak cakap tak patut sebab mahal sangat. Yang kau kawin grand nak mampos tu, tak melampau.

I think you should be banned from the media. Whatever comes out from your mouth is so stupid.

Konklusi: Saya setuju mas kawin di naikkan RM 300. Itu akan merupakan wang permulaan bagi simpanan seorang perempuan sekiranya ditiggalkan oleh lelaki-lelaki yang tidak bertanggungjawab. Ikut la keadaan semasa beb. Bukan barang-barang je affected by inflation rate.

Perkahwinan juga!

Tuesday, December 8, 2009

Singapore Marathon 2009

The Standard Chartered Singapore Marathon was my 4th Half Marathon participation and the first over sea's run. A lot of positive words about the run have been heard before and it was also claimed to be the "biggest" in terms of participation. And they were right! A total of 50,000 runners took the streets of Singapore on foot come Sunday. The organisers did their job really well I must say. Not a single motor vehicle come across the path of runners! None! Not even ONE. Runner's safety were at the pinnacle of the organisation. And for that I congratulate them and feel very very satisfied with the run.

I left for Singapore via Air Asia on Saturday morning. We (myself and Ayman) stayed at a backpackers hostel (The Hives Backpackers) not far from Boon Keng MRT station. We left our bags and went to collect the race pack at Expo. If one were to compare the efficiency of the Running Event, race kit collection and route safety were the top 2 priority. And they did and excellent job in both! They had 20 counters for half marathon only and the line was non existent-the waiting period were kept to as low as 3 seconds-how effiecient is that?! Verification of ID took another 45 seconds and you are done in less than 2 minutes. We were then directed to the Sports Exhibition next door before exit. You can get cheap and attractive sporting goods and accessories from headbands down to running shoes at crazy prices. I got myself a running shirt for $5.

Personalized Race Number - Nice

We had an early dinner at ZamZam restaurant near Arab St, and went for a walk to check out the starting point for the run before heading back to the Hostel.

One Insanely Cool Ford

Race Day - We took the MRT from Lavender to City Hall to the race start point. I was telling myself to go slow and steady and hydrate well to avoid cramps before turning on my Ipod. The route involved a lot of U-turns, so you get to see the faster runners on the opposite directions and I got to see a LOT of runners on the opposite side haha. But in line with the Organisers Motto - "Run Your Own Race", I kept running on my own. But I was never alone anyway, there were too many runners to make you feel left out and alone and I enjoyed every step of it :)

Before the start - Espalande can be seen at the background

I managed to get myself the finisher's medal after 3h 17m 03s I first crossed the timing mat at the start point, it was nothing spectacular but I enjoyed every part of it. The Water Stations/Medical Aids/Supporters/Signage were properly marshaled and placed, I only need to carry my ORS and powergel.

After the run we went to ZamZam again to have lunch. Another highlight of the trip! The beef briyani was SEDAP GILA. Maybe because I was hungry after the run, but it was really nice and the price is very fair with the portion, even if you convert to ringgit you won't be complaining ($5).

In the evening we went for sightseeing in the city centre to do some shopping and have dinner. On the way back we stopped at Mustafa - the only 24h shopping mall in Spore, it reminds me of Mydin, but much bigger and with more varieties. A must visit I think.

On the last day, we spent the entire daytime sightseeing and last minute shopping. We headed to Changi Airport at around 1930 for our flight home. It was a memorable visit and I am already looking forward to next year's run.

Going Home

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

My first seminar

Was sent to attend a seminar called 'Financial Reporting for Insurance Business'.

Attended by some seniors/managers/directors from Big 4 accounting firms and high position personnel from big insurance company in Malaysia, being their CFO, CEO, Head of Finance and some senior executives.

Speakers were partners from Ernst & Young and PricewaterhouseCoopers, Head of Finance of Manulife and Bank Negara Malaysia representative.

This is not about the boring, unexciting topic discussed during the seminar.

But rather about some silly stupid dumb-ass who actually attended the seminar.

Imagine, in the ballroom full of some big shots from big well known companies and the people that attended that kind of seminars are supposed to be profesional people or at least act like one lah...

But SOME PEOPLE just refuse to silent his bloody phone. And the phone goes "I wanna make love, I wanna make love"

Hah? want to make love in the middle of a seminar?

Oh, so inappropriate.

And it was not just once.. there was second time, third..fourth and fifth time throughout the day..

Oh, so rude!

Wednesday, November 18, 2009

15 Minutes That Shook the World

ALEX FERGUSON has been jokingly portrayed as a whisky-swilling drunk in a film starring Liverpool aces Steven Gerrard and Jamie Carragher.

And Gary Neville is labelled a rat who "hates Scousers" in the same mickey-taking movie.

The Manchester United legends come under fire in a comedy called Fifteen Minutes That Shook the World.

It is a fictional account of events that inspired Liverpool's fightback against AC Milan in the 2005 Champions League Final and is sure to spark an Old Trafford backlash.

In one scene a Fergie "lookalike" called McTaggart phones a player, who resembles Neville, to celebrate Liverpool trailing Milan by three goals.

The Neville character is wearing a United No 2 shirt bearing the name 'Rat Boy' on the back and responds by singing about how he hates Scousers - a parody of the song United fans taunt at their bitter Anfield rivals.

When the news of Liverpool's stirring fightback - capped by their penalty shootout win - comes out, McTaggart is seen knocking back a bottle of scotch which has the words 'Manager of the Month but not as good as Bob Paisley' on it.

Kop skipper Gerrard, 29, and vice-captain Carragher, 31, have cameo roles in the film and they were joined by boss Rafa Benitez at the premiere on Monday night.

United declined to comment on Liverpool playwright Dave Kirby's 43-minute film last night - and the final cut may also have come as a shock to the Liverpool stars as well.

But Ferguson and his club captain Neville are likely to be unimpressed by the involvement of Gerrard, Carragher and others at Anfield.

Ferguson was angered the last time a club poked fun at United, slamming Manchester City as a "small club with a small mentality" over their Welcome to Manchester poster.

It was erected in the summer after Carlos Tevez's shock switch across the city.

Tuesday, November 17, 2009

Dukethon - Nak ke tak nak?

Him: Ahad ni Dukethon, so how?
(How means “how’s the preparation?” or How means “Do you need me to fetch you?”

Me: Kalau I tak pergi, you kisah tak?
(Risau betul because it’s only 5km, kalau yg masuk tu semua power, maka aku last lah lagi) Poyo, I know.. :)

Him: Tak kisah jer, ikut suka you lah
(Kalau you tak pergi lagi bagus!)

Me: Eleh, suka lah tu, if I tak pergi, tak payah you nak datang ambik I kan?
(Betul ker dia tak kisah aku tak pergi nih..)

Him: Takder laaa… if you tak pergi boleh la I lari betul-betul. At least I can train myself jugak, I kan ada marathon nanti in December.
(Confirm dia tak nak aku pergi)

Me: Eleh, if I join pun you lari jer la betul-betul jugak, tak payah la lari with me..nanti you last baru tahu.
(Tiba-tiba tak puas hati plak dia tak nak aku pergi)

Him: Eh, tak lah...Second last kot. Last would be YOU.
(Cis, CONFIDENT GILER dia that I will be the last to reach the finish line!)

Tuesday, November 3, 2009

SJAA President's Cup 2009

St. John's Institution Alumni Associaton President's Cup 2009
(Inter-Batch Football Tournament)

Date : 7-8 November 2009
Time : 8.00 am - 2.00 pm
Venue : Victoria Institution Green (Preliminary - 7 Nov) & SJI (Semi-finals & Final - 8 Nov)
Admission : FREE
Group Lawrence : 88, 95, 96, 97, 98, 99
Group Cassian Pappu : 90, 00, 01, 02, 03, 94/09

Sunday, November 1, 2009

Terry Fox Run 2009

This year's Run is my 3rd outing for Terry fox Run, the first being back in 2006 and 2008 respectively. Like last year, we managed to gather quite a number of people with help from friends on Facebook to turn up for the run in Sarong.The weather was clear and sunny and the number of supporters are definitely more than 5 thousand at least. With the huge number of people, most of us Sarong People decided early enough that we are just going to enjoy the morning stroll and have fun. It is more of a walk than a run. But everything went very smooth and they were also handing out drinking water every 1 km I think. It was a hot hot morning and perspiration was kicking in even before the 9am start.

Unlike in 2006, this year's Run was supported by mostly Malaysians. And quite a number of people noticed us last year and asked if we were the same group of people. Yes we are..hehe.

My cousin, Arif who started running recently also decided to join the event clad in Sarong :)

Here are some photos taken earlier at the event - courtesy of Haza and Abg Adli of Starbucks Malaysia.

Saturday, October 31, 2009


I was looking at the blog that I share with my girlfriends.

So many girlfriends are expecting. They share their first baby scan in the blog. And I can't help thinking how beautiful the tiny lil thing growing inside them.

I kept on telling him how nice to actually feel that feeling. To be sharing the photo scan with your loved ones.

Then he sweetly said "Awak pun boleh letak pe.. Letak gambar taik". :p


Friday, October 30, 2009

Bantu lah wanita ini

Please have a read on this article.

Wan Aishah cekal hadapi dugaan

The family is seeking some financial support, so please do support wherever possible. The least we can do it to extend our prayers for her and her family. Semoga mereka dapat teruskan hidup dengan tabah.

I know this lady personally as I am a friend of her daughter. It is soo sad to know about her condition and as a friend, I cannot imagine the things that she has to go through.

My brother was once a cancer patient. I can still remember how I felt when the doctor broke the news. And I can still recall those sleepless nights when I just quietly asked from God to take me instead.

But this.... this is different. It's her mother. Tempat bermanja, tempat mengadu, tempat bergurau....... I really hope that she can be strong, so her mother can be as strong as her. When there's sthrength, happiness, there are always brighter chance of getting cured. Atau sekurang-kurangnya...sakit tu tak rasa...

Permudahkan lah, Amin.

We are in the midst of collecting funds to be donated to her family. So for those who are interested to donate kindly email me at or you can call the number shown in the article.

Thursday, October 29, 2009

Kisah seorang anak

It has been three weeks or so since my house helper of 16 years decided to go back to Indonesia for good. She is 50 this year. Naturally her children would want her to go home and stop working.

And it has also been 3 weeks since my mummy starts to go her head around the kitchen.
So last night, I thought of helping out a bit with dinner, since I am not working. I said I’d cook.

Ehem..ehemm.. jangan happy cepat sangat.

Three types of dishes.

Ketam sweet n sour. This is supposed to be the easiest dish, but I’ve always failed on this. So my mom had to repair it to make it more red-dish. (Initially it was very pale looking ketam..Tapi sedap! Chewah).

Kari telur. I did it differently this time. I added some ikan bilis bertumbuk and tumis together with the other bahan tumis. It’s my aunt’s recipe.

Sayur (tak tahu la apa nama dia) tumis with mushroom and oyster.

Started to kupas-kupas bawang at 6pm. Finished cooking at 8.50pm. O.MG. Can I justify here? I tumbuk semua bawang ok. Not justifiable enough? Ketam 8 ekor, banyak tu.. dapur sangat kecik. Masak sorang-sorang. Masa bergerak dengan pantas. Badan gemok susah nak bergerak laju-laju. Dah lama tak masak. Justifiable, No?

After finished cooking, I though happily that I can hidang the lauk already to my hungry father who didn’t have lunch.

Baru nak hidang, tetiba teringat that I didn’t cook the rice. HALAMAKKK..!!!! Sorry dad! :p

We ended up eating dinner like hungry lion (singa lapo) at 9.30pm. My dad cakap “Huh, nasib baik sedap”. :p

Happy..Nasi dan lauk semua habis licin. (Tak tahu lah sebab lapar ke sedap)

After eating, I think my dad was trying to warn me not to cook lagi sebab tak rela nak tunggu lama sangat agaknya. He said “Esok dinner kita makan chapatti beli dekat FAM”

Haihh, lebih rela makan chapatti nampaknya.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

In My Life

There are places I remember
All my life, though some have changed,
Some forever, not for better,
Some have gone and some remain.
All these places had their moments,
With lovers and friends I still can recall,
Some are dead and some are living,
In my life I've loved them all.
But of all these friends and lovers,
There is no one compared with you,
And these mem'ries lose their meaning
When I think of love as something new.
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before,
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more.
Though I know I'll never lose affection
For people and things that went before,
I know I'll often stop and think about them
In my life I love you more.
In my life I love you more.

Tuesday, October 20, 2009



Akan ku jentik telinganya.

Akan ku pukul kepalanya.

Akan ku potong tangan atau kaki yang melakukannya.

Akan ku congkel biji matanya....

Tapi... tak sampai hati. Comel sangat.

Monday, October 19, 2009

Suka sangat!

I am soooooooo in love with you...

You are soooo cute, and I am sooo madly deeply in love with you.

I fell in love with you when I saw Prince Ali in Alladin with Princess Jasmine and her tiger pet.

I fell in love with you, and I want to hug you, I want to kiss you. I want to tumbuk your comel face.

Just look at you.

You are soo adorable.

Well, I think you are a cub, not a kitten.
Although everybody seems to think otherwise.

Conversation semasa kanak-kanak:

Me: Ma, nak bela harimau.
Mama: Gila! Nanti dia makan kamu baru tahu
Me: Kita bela dia takkan dia nak makan kita
Mama: It's not a pet.
Me: I want! I want! I want!
Mama: Shut up! Or I'll put you in the zoo with the tigers.

Terus diam. Tahu takut.

Sunday, October 18, 2009


Yesterday I went out dinner with my family. Since everyone of us had good rice for lunch, we decided not to eat rice for dinner.

So we had Burger King. Then somebody suggested durian.

Uncle David's durian memang best. Dulu when I was small, D24 tu dah kira terbaik la. If we behave baik-baik, we would be able to get good durian, D24 then. Tapi now, I realised, the best is NOT D24.

Try Raja Musang or Majerin. TERBAIK. I don't know if the names are commercialised, or he just simply give the names..but they are different from others. Tengok je texture dia.

Dengan tak sedar diri, makan la dengan banyak nya. Banyak jugak la, sampai RM100 kene. My parents always amalkan pour water into the empty shell of the durian, then drink it. It is believed that it will counteract kalau rasa panas badan. But I have always condemn the action.

So balik jer, rasa tekak haus, tak sedap badan, ngantuk, lenguh kaki, rasa nak tidur jer dengan aircond on. TAK STUDY!

Orang Perak kata, liang libu dibuatnya..

Pengajaran: Jangan makan durian malam sebelum exam!

Thursday, October 15, 2009

Susah jadi model

Filippa Hamilton, modelling for Ralph Lauren was fired 6 months ago because they claim that she has gone overweight. O.M.G. Her initial body was as big as my thigh.

And look at how she looks now.

Is this over-weight?

Mr Lauren, I think you're sick, no?

Oh, you think I am obese.

Thank you very much.

Wednesday, October 7, 2009

Silent Cry

Silence the cry stepping back further
Escape from the mind , my mind
Twisting inside looking for shelter
Find the divide in me

Oh my god what have I done , one step now the damage is done

It's silent without you
It burns through each and everyday
it takes my breathe away
So lonely without you there's no view
Colours just fade to grey
It takes my breathe away

I was so blind I should have seen it
Noticed the life my Life
I had to climb stepping up further
To find the divide in me

Oh my god what have I done , one step now the damage is done.

It's silent without you
It burns through each and everyday
It takes my breathe away
So lonely without you there's no view
Colours just fade to grey

It takes my breathe away

They all say much of us
But then you always knew
Just want to live our lives
We know your trying to
We put our faith in you
To find new ways to care
Until this story ends

It takes my breathe away
It's silent without you
It burns through each and everyday
It takes my breathe away


It takes my Breathe away

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Monday, October 5, 2009


Orang Kurang Upaya.

Pada namanya, kita sebagai manusia mesti ada rasa kasihan.

Tapi kenapa mesti mengeksploitasikan diri sendiri?

Mintak sedekah sana sini.

Orang kurang upaya ni, bukannya kurang segala tubuh badan. Sikit je.

Mungkin takder kaki, tapi masih ada mata, dan tangan.

Mungkin takder mata, tapi masih ada tangan dan kaki.

Mungkin takder tangan, tapi masih ada kaki.

Well, I personally know a person yang memang sejak dari lahir tak ada both hands. But he went to school like normal people, belajar macam biasa.

He writes, he eats, with his legs. Tuhan bagi flexibility to his legs, so he can do everything dengan kaki. Alhamdulillah, he managed to enroll himself as a law student in UiTM. Malah, dia masih ada kudrat untuk join MERCI ke Acheh dan memberi pulak bantuan kepada orang lain yang dikira lebih memerlukan.

Semua orang ada pendapat masing-masing.

Bagi saya, they should lead a normal life. Go to normal schools, Bergaul with normal people. Because selagi they are normal mentally, maksudnya mereka normal. But of course during exams, and their learning hours should be extended, and maybe the teachers should give some support whenever they need it. Tapi jangan sampai merendahkan diri sendiri dan minta dikasihani. Itu jalan mudah.

Tak salah kalau kita derma kepada OKU yang sedang berusaha. Jual barang, for example tissue packet. Kalau rasa nak bantu, beli lah tissue tu, kalau jual RM 1, bayar la RM 2. Takpe. Tapi yang berjalan ke hulu ke hilir bawa tong kosong dengan tongkat, kepit baby bawah ketiak mintak sedekah… itu tak patut.

Bayangkan, orang buta pun masih boleh menganyam tikar. Sebab Tuhan tu Maha Kuasa. Setiap orang ada cacat celanya, dan ada kemahiran masing-masing. Gunakan lah dengan sehabis baik. Gambar yang di atas ni, orang-orang buta sedang sailing. Sebab bagi mereka, mereka cacat penglihatan, tapi tangan dan kaki masih boleh digunakan.
God Bless.
Hari ni, ada pulak berita OKU ditangkap kerana merogol gadis bawah umur. Hmm.. bila nak mintak belas kasihan, tahu nak mengasingkan diri dari normal people, tak payah kerja sebab cacat, tak sama macam orang lain. Tapi, bila nafsu dah macam binatang, “saya hanya manusia biasa”.

Dekat KL Sentral, hari tu tengah ramai-ramai orang jalan tu, ada lah satu mamat OKU ni, konon mintak sedekah, tapi bermain dengan ‘anu’ nya kat situ. Aduhai...

Tak tahu nak kata.

Sunday, October 4, 2009

If I were a boy

If I were a boy even just for a day
I'd roll out of bed in the morning
And throw on what I wanted
And go drink beer with the guys

And chase after girls
I'd kick it with who I wanted
And I'd never get confronted for it
'Cause they stick up for me

If I were a boyI think
I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

I'd listen to her
'Cause I know how it hurts
When you lose the one you wanted'
Cause he's taking you for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

If I were a boy
I would turn off my phone
Tell everyone it's broken
So they'd think that I was sleeping alone

I'd put myself first
And make the rules as I go
'Cause I know that she'd be faithful
Waiting for me to come home, to come home

If I were a boy
I think I could understand
How it feels to love a girl
I swear I'd be a better man

It's a little too late for you to come back
Say it's just a mistake
Think I'd forgive you like that
If you thought I would wait for you
You thought wrong

But you're just a boy
You don't understand
And you don't understand, oh
How it feels to love a girl
Someday you wish you were a better man

You don't listen to her
You don't care how it hurts
Until you lose the one you wanted
'Cause you're taking her for granted
And everything you had got destroyed

But you're just a boy

Friday, October 2, 2009

Tackling Ops Sikap

(This video contains graphic scenes. Viewer discretion is advised)

After the Harsh Anti-Smoking Campaign, we should have another harsh reminder like this for Bad Malaysian Drivers.

Change comes from within, that is the kind of change we should strive for.

Thursday, October 1, 2009


As I was lazily browsing through my facebook, ntah kenapa tergerak kat hati ni nak type perkataan ‘’Malaysia’ through the search box. And I found these.

I started typing ‘Indonesia’ to see if anyone of our own people had created such uncivilized groups.


Betul ke Malaysia ni maling (pencuri). Oh, I better not use the word, nanti dituduh pencuri bahasa.

My point is, wajar ke tuduhan pencuri tu ke atas kita? Bukan ke kita ni sama-sama bangsa melayu? Malaysian malay, Indonesian Malay, Singaporean Malay and Bruneian Malay. Kita sama-sama mempunya adat dan culture yang sama. Most of our Malaysian people pun berasal dari Indonesia dan negara-negara sekeliling.

Kita berasalah dari rumpun yang sama, mungkin berbeza negara. It is how we promote our culture. It is how we go around the globe and share our culture to the world. Semua tu adalah culture ‘MELAYU’ bukan Malaysia, bukan Indonesia, bukan Singapura. So happen our Malaysian people know better in promoting our culture.

Pencuri ke tu? Kami pun melayu juga.
Apa pun, Malaysia instantly stopped the promo on dicovery channels and meminta maaf. Tapi masih tak puas agaknya.


Dalam masalah dunia, economy crisis, H1N1, orang gaji demand lebih-lebih (kerja tak bagus mana pun), literally mencuri dan merompak physically duit dan jewelleries, deorang masih lagi nak kecoh pasal TARIAN?

I don’t even know what the hell is tarian pendet.

Sampai perang-perang jadinya.

Hari tu on raya eve, I saw on TV about the news of the death of Noordin Mat Top, the Malaysian terrorist that was successfully killed by the Indonesian authorities.

Ketua polis ke whatever his pangkat is commented on the news about the success. It went something like “Noordin perlu di hantar balik ke Malaysia dengan segera kerana dia berasal dari Malaysia bukan Indonesia, saya ulangi dia berasal dari Malaysia, BUKAN Indonesia. Perlulah dihantar dengan segera supaya tidak menganggu lagi di Indonesia”.

Mr whoever you are, I really think it was an unfair statement. For someone at the topmost authority level, keluar dalam tv news and say such thing.. is very… shall I say… uneducated? C’mon, whatever the issue is, you cannot be criticizing other countries secara terbuka. Especially kepada Negara jiran. Diplomatic la sikit kalau ye pun.

Like our PM said, terrorism is a global issue. It is unfair to say that Malaysia is the breeding ground for terrorists.

Bukan ke guru agama yang telah mengajar dan banyak meng-influence Noordin Mat Top ini adalah Abu Bakar Bashir, from Indonesia?

Benci Malaysian? Anti Malaysia?

Few of Malaysian websites telah diserang Indonesian hackers on our Independence Day.

Bendera Malaysia dibakar dan dipijak-pijak dengan rakus sekali at few locations in Indonesia.

Serangan terhadap Kedutaan Malaysia di Indonesia.

Intention untuk menghalau our medical students from their country.

Malaysia masih berdiam diri.

Bukan pengecut.

Tapi educated, civilized, democracy.

Bila berlaku bencana alam seperti gempa bumi di sana…

Malaysia masih lagi menghantar bantuan. Atas nama perikemanusiaan.

Entah kenapa bila tengok dalam news, kanak-kanak menangis, orang menjerit-jerit, dalam kekecohan itu, sikit pun tak terusik hati aku.

Wednesday, September 30, 2009


She was in the car with her parents and siblings.

Traffic light turned red, and they stopped.

She saw a young man squatting under the tree by the roadside on a broad daylight. He looked weak, and lost.

She just made a simple remark.

Kesian orang tu. Duduk kat luar panas-panas ni”. When she said that, she really meant it.

One of the people in the car made a stupid remark.

Ha ah la.. kesian.. Eleh tapi cina, tak payah kesian!”


Bukan ke perikemanusiaan itu tak kenal bangsa?

Friday, September 25, 2009


Funny that she didn’t shed a tear.
Funny that she thought it all sounded normal to her.

After all these years, she was the one who built him up.
Gave him the desire to continue with life.
Provided shelter when it rains.
Spread her wings when the world turns its back against him.

She recollected.

She is just a simple girl from a small family, growing up in a big town. She was not a bright student, but she sure has clear ambition. She always wanted to start her life big. She wanted to have big family, she has always wanted to obtain big qualification, possess big position, and hold a big career path. She has always wanted to study abroad, get married to an engineer or a lawyer and work as professionals.

She fantasizes living in a hectic life in a big city like London and speak French fluently. She dreams of having a big home in Kensington, hire a chauffeur to drive her kids to school, have a big holiday mansion in Spain, and be someone prominent in the society she lives in.

But life is not perfect. Nothing is perfect.

Disregarding her dreams, but holding on to her ambition..

She could live without the mansion in Spain, without a chauffeur to drive her kids to school, and she could just live in a small 2-bedroom home in Shah Alam, settles with only Malay and English as her daily language, living in the chaotic and unruly Kuala Lumpur.

But she cannot just work as clerk and get married to an office boy and just be thankful that she is still earning. She had set that goal, and she will live every minute of her life en route for the ambition. She will get up if she fails; she will fight, and will not be defeated. She can forgo her beautiful dreams, but not her ambitions.

She will not be overpowered. Not even by love.

She realized now that she can’t control the surroundings to accommodate for her goal. She has got to go out and look for the right surroundings for the same goal.

Raya 20092009

Raya would normally be the same throughout the years.

Same old bunga api.

Same old kuih raya, rendang, lemang and ketupat.
Same old small family pictures.

Same old big family pictures.

Same old scene everytime, everywhere. Hehehe..

Distinctively this raya, we did not stay in kampong that long like we used to do to celebrate raya, instead all of my family flew to Kelantan to be with my mak long who just got to know that she has got a 3.5cm tumor at the head of her pancreas.

While the result of her CT scan has yet to be released from the specialist, the M.Os and other doctors had pretty much hinted that the tumor is cancerous. Although we do not want to accept the indications, it didn’t deter us from fearing the risk of a poor prognosis.

I can’t doubtlessly imagine how calm she was when she broke the news. When everybody was crying, she could still give the best smile to everyone.

Dear God, please don’t let it be cancerous. Let the tumor be operable and removable. Please make us strong for her to be stronger.

The official result will be released in two weeks time. I know there is still hope. I know God loves someone like her. Nice, pleasant, amiable are not adequate enough to describe a person like her. She is just wonderful in her own way.

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