Funny that she didn’t shed a tear.
Funny that she thought it all sounded normal to her.
After all these years, she was the one who built him up.
Gave him the desire to continue with life.
Provided shelter when it rains.
Spread her wings when the world turns its back against him.
She is just a simple girl from a small family, growing up in a big town. She was not a bright student, but she sure has clear ambition. She always wanted to start her life big. She wanted to have big family, she has always wanted to obtain big qualification, possess big position, and hold a big career path. She has always wanted to study abroad, get married to an engineer or a lawyer and work as professionals.
She fantasizes living in a hectic life in a big city like London and speak French fluently. She dreams of having a big home in Kensington, hire a chauffeur to drive her kids to school, have a big holiday mansion in Spain, and be someone prominent in the society she lives in.
But life is not perfect. Nothing is perfect.
Disregarding her dreams, but holding on to her ambition..
She could live without the mansion in Spain, without a chauffeur to drive her kids to school, and she could just live in a small 2-bedroom home in Shah Alam, settles with only Malay and English as her daily language, living in the chaotic and unruly Kuala Lumpur.
But she cannot just work as clerk and get married to an office boy and just be thankful that she is still earning. She had set that goal, and she will live every minute of her life en route for the ambition. She will get up if she fails; she will fight, and will not be defeated. She can forgo her beautiful dreams, but not her ambitions.
She will not be overpowered. Not even by love.
She realized now that she can’t control the surroundings to accommodate for her goal. She has got to go out and look for the right surroundings for the same goal.