In April, I realised something was very wrong with my body. My tummy bloated like different kind of bloat. I asked my husband if he thinks that it was something to do with growth or fibroid or anything like that. He just said " No laaaa, maybe you're just getting fatter" blergghhh!! I bought another pregnancy home kit. Hoping for a miracle. Hoping it was positive. Because if it didnt turn out positive, there was a chance of fibroid or growth. Seriously, the bloat is very diffierent kind of bloat. I know la my own body. Boo my husband! hehe
I tested. It was positive. I couldnt believe my eyes. I asked my husband and my mom if the result shown meant I was pregnant. None of them actually know. Mom has never used pregnancy home kit before. So she herself was not confident. I asked few friends, none of them gave positive remark, because they didnt want to give me false hope.
I bought two more pregnancy home kit, different brands and tested at different time.
All showed positive results. And one of them, ClearBlue (supposedly the most reliable one) actually displayed 3+ on the screen, and according to the instruction, it meant 3 weeks plus. I read the instructions over and over again, waiting for time to go see the doctor for confirmation.
I made an appointment with a very famous obgyn in Subang Jaya Medical Centre (SDMC), Dr Siti on 3 May 2012.
She did a scan, and she said she could only see a sac. But no baby. But of course she didnt say it like that. I would have cried my heart out if she had said "No baby" to my face! She said it in the most comforting way, I cannot describe.
Then she inserted something in the vagina, and she said "that's the baby, it is at the right position" showing me from the screen. But honestly I could not see anything. The thing that she called baby. I couldnt see it. I could only see this little black sac. But i fell in love with the black hole already.
Alhamdulillah, it is something miracle to me. Because of my medical history, my irregular cycle, and all the doctors that I went for consultation with told me that I will have difficulty in getting pregnant unless I seek medical help. But I gave myself 1 year to try naturally, and syukur, at 8 months of marriage, Dr Siti confirmed I was 5 weeks pregnant.
But at this point in time, up to my second checkup, I still could not believe I was pregnant. Everything was like a dream. And even in reality, I was only 50% sure that I was actually pregnant.
Patiently waited for the second checkup.