Raya 21 - 2012

Dah 21 hari raya, baru la berkesempatan nak jumpa my bffs. Dah la bulan puasa tak jumpa langsung. But anyway, Dyla's open house memang la rumah yang ditunggu setiap tahun.

From left: ShoN, Ira, me, Dini, Myra, Dyla, Nad and Asma

So happy to meet everyone. Especially the moms to be! I call ourselves, the dragon mummies. That's because all of us who are pregnant will be delivering in the year of dragon, insyaAllah. Except for Dini though. Not sure when is her due date. She will be dragon mom also if she delivers before 10th Feb 2013.

Macam mana pun, so very happy to meet up and sharing checkup experiences.

 I look like I'm gonna pop real soon don't I? Haihh tapi hakikatnya, lambat lagi.. heheh!!

Can't wait for next meet up with the girls, hopefully..very soon.

Pregnancy 2nd month

In the previous entry, I talked about discovering the pregnancy. In the first checkup which was about 5 weeks then, we couldn't see anything from the scanner screen. Just a black hole. Dr Siti told me to come again in 3 weeks time to see the progress. You'd be surprise to see how the tiny little dot, has grown into a piece of living meat in just 3 weeks time.

From the screen, I could see the meat moving, Dr said it was the heartbeat. I couldn't believe what I was seeing. I was still only half convinced that I was pregnant. Seeing that thing moving, I thought it was just in my mind. Probably it moved because I was breathing.

But still, I went back home feeling so happy that finally I see something in my womb. The scanner cannot be lying, right.

At 8 weeks, my tummy was already looking like 16 weeks. Probably because I was bloating. Berangin satu badan.

This is the time where everybody will take extra careful of you. Because you are so fragile at this point in time. Takut keguguran. Makan pun jaga. Nenas, kicap, kopi were the BIG NO! Although Dr said there is no restrictions. Semua akan pesan, no heavy lifting, no running, and no heavy work. But for some of us who are wondering if you can still have sex with your husband, the answer that Dr gave was "yes, you can, but stop when you bleed". Of course it wasn't me who asked the Dr. Adalah orang lain yang tanya :p

Alhamdulillah, I did not have bad morning sickness. The most is rasa mual, macam nak muntah, tapi tak muntah-muntah. Feeling sick and fatigue all the time. I thought it was end of the world already. But when I got to know some of my other friends were put to bed rest for weeks, taking up MCs, duduk sebelah jamban to get ready to vomit anytime, consuming pain killers, I felt so thankful and syukur to Allah that I didnt have to go through all that. Well, not in this pregnancy la at least. Different pregnancy kan different experience.

In this period, I also had back pain and lower abdominal pain that made me difficult to walk and uncomfortable when I sleep. When I want to get up from my seat, I had to stand still for few seconds just so my muscle tak terkejut bila terus berjalan. And bila jalan, yaAllah, macam orang dah sarat. Sebab sakit sangat dekat lower abdominal tu. Orang cakap, sakit tu normal. Sebab baby nak mengembang and membesar. So I didnt worry too much.

When you are at this stage, then you realise kenapa orang pregnant selalu moody. Sebab menahan sakit badan yang teramat sangat and rasa indescribable fatigue. Just like why women are moody during their menses. sebab nak tahan sakit perut period. But of course, some lucky ladies, do not have to go through all these. Tapi, only when you go through these la, you realise betapa besarnya jasa ibu. For going through all these, but still not giving up. You'll appreciate your mother more!

Bila dah macam ni, of course I couldn't wait for my next checkup!

 

Pregnancy 1st month

I discovered something was baking in the oven some time in late April. Then, I was 2 months late. But I didn't put much hope in it because I had an irregular menstrual cycle. And the fact that I checked using home kit test in March, the negative result did not surprise me at all.

In April, I realised something was very wrong with my body. My tummy bloated like different kind of bloat. I asked my husband if he thinks that it was something to do with growth or fibroid or anything like that. He just said " No laaaa, maybe you're just getting fatter" blergghhh!! I bought another pregnancy home kit. Hoping for a miracle. Hoping it was positive. Because if it didnt turn out positive, there was a chance of fibroid or growth. Seriously, the bloat is very diffierent kind of bloat. I know la my own body. Boo my husband! hehe

I tested. It was positive. I couldnt believe my eyes. I asked my husband and my mom if the result shown meant I was pregnant. None of them actually know. Mom has never used pregnancy home kit before. So she herself was not confident. I asked few friends, none of them gave positive remark, because they didnt want to give me false hope. 

I bought two more pregnancy home kit, different brands and tested at different time. 

All showed positive results. And one of them, ClearBlue (supposedly the most reliable one) actually displayed 3+ on the screen, and according to the instruction, it meant 3 weeks plus. I read the instructions over and over again, waiting for time to go see the doctor for confirmation.

I made an appointment with a very famous obgyn in Subang Jaya Medical Centre (SDMC), Dr Siti on 3 May 2012.

She did a scan, and she said she could only see a sac. But no baby. But of course she didnt say it like that. I would have cried my heart out if she had said "No baby" to my face! She said it in the most comforting way, I cannot describe.

Then she inserted something in the vagina, and she said "that's the baby, it is at the right position" showing me from the screen. But honestly I could not see anything. The thing that she called baby. I couldnt see it. I could only see this little black sac. But i fell in love with the black hole already.

Alhamdulillah, it is something miracle to me. Because of my medical history, my irregular cycle, and all the doctors that I went for consultation with told me that I will have difficulty in getting pregnant unless I seek medical help. But I gave myself 1 year to try naturally, and syukur, at 8 months of marriage, Dr Siti confirmed I was 5 weeks pregnant.

But at this point in time, up to my second checkup, I still could not believe I was pregnant. Everything was like a dream. And even in reality, I was only 50% sure that I was actually pregnant.

Patiently waited for the second checkup.