I have always wanted to get pregnant. Even when Iris was still 6 months old. Crazy, I know. But everytime I see babies being abandoned on news, my heart aches and I always tell my husband to go check with kebajikan masyarakat if we can take the baby. But everytime, we fail. Of course there are criteria for you to fulfil if you want to take anak angkat, and one of it is you have been married for a certain number of years but still not able to conceive naturally. Memang tak boleh la kan?
So now, the news is...... I am 8 weeks pregnant. Alhamdulillah....syukur!! My Iris is now 1 year and 6 months old. She will be 2y 2m when we see our baby, insyaAllah on 6 February 2015.
Ready or not, it's already in here, babeh!
One thing that I have to do which I am still not ready to do so is.......stop breastfeeding my toddler. Oh my god. Every GP/doctor I see tell me to stop breastfeed instantly. Breastfeeding gives a different hormone and reduces the pregnancy hormone which can cause miscarriage. But of course you hear some people are able to nurse their toddlers throughout the pregnancy period and some even manage to tandem nurse their babies together. But my GP said...it's a risk you are taking. It's individual, some can make it, some cant. And why should I take the risk when my toddler is already more than 1 year and big enough to take the formula milk. That's her argument.
But my argument is.......I just cant stop her.
The question is, am I able to wean my Iris off that easily? Of course not. Although we have been wanting to get pregnant, honestly, we didn't try hard enough to make sure we get pregnant. Cakap je nak tapi tak pernah cuba pun. It's kind of unexpected actually. So of course I never thought about weaning off so soon.
It breaks my heart when my gynae told me to stop breasfeed. And it breaks my heart to see my daughter cries when I refuse to open my shirt for her.
Semoga Allah permudahkan this new journey for me and my babies. Ameen..